Monday, March 17, 2008

Have I lost you?

I feel like I've lost you...

The bond between us is no longer there, the closeness gone, the silence awkward.
Is it just the ocean between us or has something happened? Have I done something to piss you off or to hurt you?

Tell me, darling... what's wrong? I don't wanna lose you. I don't want our 20 years of friendship to fade just like that. I love you.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Waking up to the smell of coffee (literally)

Ahhhhh~~~~ that would be just heavenly...

Waking up to the smell of freshly brewed coffee and omelette (or whatever else) on the stove, by my very own man...


MMmmmmmm~~~ almost as good as an orgasm... :)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I wanna go home for easter!!!!!!!

Stop going to KL, u damned hongkies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You've tripled the ticket prices!!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

The war within

Me: All I want is just to have fun.

A: At the expense of someone else?

D: The world is unfair. There's just too many people to care about. Why should I care about everyone else? I should only care about me. About what I want. I've spent all my life thinking of everyone else's feelings!

A: What goes around comes around.

D: Fuck that. It already came.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

It shouldn't be me

“…Oh n btw, next week onwards I won't be online n no sms cos u know... don't want trouble…”

What was that? Did u think I was stupid enough to do all that knowing she's gonna be with you? Did u think u had to warn me not to? Wait a sec... you shouldn't even be doing any shit with me if you were worried about getting into trouble. Hell you shouldn't even want to do shit with me in the very first place!!!!

So why am I doing shit with you? As the feminist I am, I realise I shouldn't. I always think about how your girlfriend would feel if she found out. Sure we're not going all the way, although that's only cos I haven't allowed it. But... how would she feel if she found out you wanted someone else? How would I feel if I had been going out with a guy for so long and found out that he wants someone else? I picture you bringing her out with your group of friends, all knowing about me. All liking me better. With one of your closest friend wishing you'd dump her and be with me instead. How would I feel if I were in her shoes? Horrible. Devastated. Heart broken. Broken beyond words.

And then I think... why should your guilt conscience lie on me? You should be worrying about all that. Not me.